10 Funfacts for the year '10!

Cases are meant to be solved, but mysteries are made to remain silent.

Everyone is a mystery. You are a mystery. I am a mystery.

Mysteries are often solved with bits and traces of clues, leading up to the resolution.

No human being will be able to solve me, but here are 10 fun facts (or clues!) that might solve a bit of me :)

1. Everyone procrastinates. That's right, but what's so special about this? I bet none of you procrastinates the way I do. Most of you might procrastinate by facebooking, blogging, tweeting, or tumblr-ing, but I bet none of you stare at the computer screen blankly, thinking about basically nothing significant, while spinning in a chair. Yup, I can keep this up to as long as 30 minutes without even realizing it. Call me weird, but it’s sadly it's true.

2. Fears and phobias can really take over your life! Almost everyone takes their phobias seriously, but I take mine to the next level. Don’t believe me? I’ve used an umbrella inside the house because I was scared. Not of thunder, lightning, rain, or sunshine, but I was scared of geckos falling on me. Talk about batrachophobia!

3. We all have habists. I know this is really common, but nobody really knows this about me. Before reading, vow to shushh! :P Okayy... Here it goes: I sing in the shower. No comment. :) I bet you're all wondering about this!

4. Birthdays are special. Everyone has something special that they are proud of about their birthday, and so do I. I am born exactly in the middle of the year. I really am proud since I'm the only one in my family who's not "makan umur" :)

5. Everyone should have their very own talents and hobbies. I Rubik's cube. A lot. I currently have 16, and I can solve all but two. Currently, I can solve the 2x2x2, 3x3x3, 4x4x4, 5x5x5, Rubik's 360, 3x3x5, Rubik's 2.0/ Mirror Cube, Pyramid, and possibly moreee :)

6. Fact number six will be completely useless. But knowledge is never really useless, now is it? I got my blackberry on Saturday, May 10, 2009.

7. I've posted this on a blogpost before, but I'm going to post it again anyways. My worst habit: Going to supermarkets and pinching, squishing, and crushing everything within sight or reach. Next time you go to Hypermart, Food Mart, Food Hall, or Ranch Market and you see a disorted food package, remember me and my bad habit :)

8. I am clumsy. REALLY clumsy. To make a long story short, you can basically come up to me at the end of everyday and ask me what I have done, and I can easily tell you one thing I've injured that day. Talk about being clumsy! :O

9. I read my first novel ever in the 2nd grade. It was Junie B. Jones and the Stupid Smelly Bus. I bought it on a Sunday in Times Bookstore when it was still open in PI. Weird how I remember this, eh? (*NOTE: I have a freakishly good short-term memory! Ask me anything that has recently happened, or any names and faces and I can almost always answer 'em!)

10. This post was inspired by @Marboi, author of The Marblog which can be viewed at http://Marboi.blogspot.com I credit him for this :))

Good or Bad?

Our world is just a little speck in a very big universe.

Face it: We live in a small world.

We are constantly surrounded with people, both good and bad. Not everyone can be trusted. As an individual human being, I am constantly put up with this judgement.

Good or bad?

I've met both. I've met those goody-two-shoes who's just pleasing. I've met those who aren't as pleasing. Yet, I've also met those who I thought were good, yet ended up being different. It's all in the hands of yourself.

Good or bad?

You have to make the judgement. It just ain't right when someone who you thought were good ended up being, well, bad. It's just not right. It's just not fair. But hey, it's life. You'll meet all different people.

Good or bad?

You make the decision, but remember: you don't have to apologize for who you are. You are you; you are special. It's their loss. Be bold, be proud, be brave.

Be Good and Bad.

My Only One

The sky has lost its colour,

The sun has turned to grey.

At least that's how I feel,

Whenever you are away.

When you leave I count your steps,

When you're here I count your words.

I can never accept reality,

Whatever it takes, I'll let my mind run its laps.

The sun has light up once again,

The sky and its colour reappear.

I know the cost but I still strive,

Never will I let you disappear.

Fidelity

You're not gonna promise one another that you will not disappoint one another, because at some point you will. What is important is you don't go away, you don't escape, you don't leave one another just because you were disappointed.

That's the meaning of fidelity.

Bad Days and Injustice

Some days, I feel like I'm on top of the world. Things go the way I plan, things go the way I want it to go, and things go my way.
Some days, I feel like I'm crushed; jinxed.
But some days, I wake up feeling on top of the world, but in a blink of an eye, I'm crushed.
Today, I suppose, is one of those days.
Maybe I just have to face it. But that's not how I play.
Is there anything more I can do? Maybe not. But I'm going to find a way.
I'm going to end this injustice.
I'm standing up for fairness.
Who's with me?

Enough.

"I start to feel like I can't maintain the facade any longer, that I may just start to show through. And I wish I knew what was wrong. Maybe something about how tiring my whole l,ife is. I don't know. Why does the rest of the world put up with the hypocrisy, the need to put a happy face on sorrow, the need to keep on keeping on? ... I don't know the answer, I know only that I can't. I don't want any more vicissitudes, I don't want any more of this try, try again stuff. I just want out. I've had it. I am so tired. I am thirteen and I am already exhausted."

Perseverance and Personal Strength

"I'm just a little bit caught in the middle. Life is a maze and love is a riddle."- Lenka

Have you ever experienced the feeling of being so hopeless and helpless, not knowing what to do? That feeling when you think the whole world has turned their back on you... Yeah, that. I'm sure you all know what I'm thinking about.

That feeling of the loss of perseverance.

Feeling like you lack personal strength.

It's a natural process of the teenage years. I can relate.

Lots of times, I have felt hopeless, all in school matters, family matters, friendship matters, and much more, but through what I have experienced, I have learn to just let go of those matters. I try to set my mind on the finish line:

"Think how good it will be once it's all over."

I would like to share with all of you what I have gained through my downs :)

One thing for sure, is that you should never give up, for that is just the time where the tide will turn. Worrying does not empty tomorrow's sorrow; it will just empty today's strength. Don't give up finding your way, but keep in mind that sometimes it takes bending to avoid breaking. Don't let temporary things scar you, making you regret your current decisions in the future. Start by doing what is necessary, then do what's possible. Soon, you will be doing the impossible. Remember: with love and patience, nothing is impossible. Just don't give up trying to do what you really wanna do. Where there is love and inspiration, I don't think you can go wrong. If we all did the things we are capable of doing, we would astound ourselves. Take the first step in faith. You don't have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step. with faith.

I really hope what I shared will be an influence to all you feeling helpless, 'cause I know you all got school ;)

God bless always,

TawzieTawz x.