Perhaps.

I don't understand how you can smile all day but cry yourself to sleep at night. How pictures never change, but the people in them do. How you can love so innocently, but it can turn into anger so quickly. How your best friend can become your worst enemy or how strange it is when your worst enemy turns into your best friend. How forever turns into a few short months that you’d do almost anything to get back. How you can let go of something you once said you couldn’t live without. How even though you know something is best for you, it hurts just the same. How the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare. How the smell of a person stays with you even when they’re gone. How people make promises and bare their souls to someone, despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken. How people can erase you from their lives cause it’s just easier then working things out.

Getting the Possible Impossibly

One suicide victim who commited suicide by jumping from the Golden Gate Bridge left behind a note saying, "I'm going to walk to the bridge. If one person smiles at me, I will not jump."

This Is Summer

With every passing day I don't see your face, I lay awake at night staring into space
With every passing moment we spend apart, my love for you grows stronger
With every thought I think about our memories, times well spent away it carries
With every breath I take without you next to me, suffocated is how I feel

Time away from you made me remember the sunshine and the waves
Crashing on the shore washing away the tears from spring, autumn, winter
The reason I'm still here; this is summer

With every falling raindrop that falls on my ledge, a teardrop on my cheek I hesitate to catch
With every falling child that falls off a swing, reminisces of our past it brings

Memories fade, I still remember the sunshine and the waves
Crashing on the shore washing away the tears from spring, autumn, winter
The reason I'm still here; this is summer

But how do I hold all this pain in? It's far too much for me to endure
Teach me how to endure everything. The reason it's all I care about...

I remember the sunshine and the waves
Crashing on the shore washing away the tears from spring, autumn, winter
The reason I'm still here is because I still remember
The good times that we spend, just us two together
With no one else around, you are all I care
No matter what the cost, the hurt I can bear
The reason I remember, the reason I still care, the reason I can bear;
This is summer

The Same Either Way

He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you

Goodnight, Sweet Dreams

Girl: Babe I don't think I can sleep.

Boy: Why baby?

Girl: I don't know. I need your boring voice to put me to sleep. Can you tell me a story? Hehehe

Boy: Hahah, you're lucky that you're cute. How about I read you Dear John.

Girl: Sounds perfect.

- Boy reads Dear John -

- 15 minutes later -

Girl: *Snores*

Boy: Babe?

Girl: *Snores*

Boy: Hahah, you always knock out within 15 minutes. Your snores are cute. Babe, I really love you. I really do. Sometimes I might show that I don't give a fuck. But I do. I never want to lose you. I know it's cheesy, but this is how I feel. This is REAL. I know I'm not the best thing out there, but I'm trying to be one of your best ever. Thank you babe, thank you for choosing a messed up guy like me to be your boyfriend. Thank you for being mine. I honestly can't see myself with anyone but you babe. I know I say I love you too many times, but each time I say it, my feelings grow more & more for you. Thanks for listening babe. I'll still be on the phone if you need anything. Goodnight babe & sweet dreams. I won't let the bed bugs bite you.

AWW :)

Why Hello.

Hey bloggies :)

Sorry for the lack of updates and posts. I have been VERY busy lately doing a lot of blog-worthy compositions for an english project. Yep, I've been creating a ME BOOK ! :D If you're wondering what it is, it's a book all about ME :)

To make up for the lack of posts, I'm going to give ya'll a preview of my me book heree :)

I'll also be posting new music! :D

Also, since I've been neglecting this blog to write for my Me Book, that means I have a TON of posts to post here soon, so keep an eye out!

Want a peek at my Me Book?

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HERE IT IS! :D

... Keep an eye out, more pages to come! :D

Awake with a Smile

Awake with a smile, I will never learn to say goodbye. A goodnight is all I can say, hope it gives you joy :)

Lying in my bed wide awake, I took time to think things through.
These past few weeks have been a whirlwind, way more than a roller coaster ride.
Consumed. Depleted. Evacuated.
I feel so lost in this sea of madness.
I begin to feel that days grow longer as nights grow shorter- what a pity.
I love night time, gazing up upon the starry night sky with hopes that you are seeing the exact same phenomenontical beauty I am perceiving.
Tonight, as I tucked my restless head, killed by insomnia, to sleep, I wonder where you are right now. What you're doing and what you're thinking about seems to mean so much to me. I want to know everything about you. Do you like stars, just like me?
After ages of studying, I just have not learnt one thing. Maybe it's because lecturers trust we have the base knowledge on this, or maybe because nobody thoroughly knows how. What is it, you ask?
Saying goodbye. Why is it that we learn about everything but that? Considering it's such a hassle with people, I'm not sure why. I take it as no one really knows how to.
As I speak, I say I don't know how to either. Only a simple goodnight I can say, believing that everything will be okay in the end. Yes, I say believing, since I know I don't always get my happy ending, but there's no harm in having faith, is there?
So I speak, goodnight.
Everything's gonna be okay.
As I try to doubt myself, I stop the urge.
Goodnight stars, goodnight moon, goodnight prince charming, wherever you are.

Sweet dreams :)